I had no computer for like a month but now it’s back and I’m doing another 5k in March!!!
Legs legs legs. Jealous jealous jealous.
I love Taylor Swift and Cara Delevingne so much.
I also love Taylor’s legs. They are perfect.
I am a weirdo.
I barely have any time left and I look like shit. I’ve been eating really well for about a month but not working out as much as I should because I’m so tired from my fucked up sleep schedule and working a lot. At least that’s burning some calories.
I haven’t even weighed myself. I just want to LOOK better. Ugh.
Kind of frustrated with life and snuck out to go running at like 9 pm. It was creepy like it always is at night because there are bugs in the trees that go PSSSST! like a rapist/murderer waiting for the perfect moment to get me. (LOL?) I don’t know why running in the dark at night is so different than running in the dark in the morning.
Anyway, I don’t even feel like I ran at all even though my 5k app made me run for 2 1/2 minutes twice and my heart rate was through the roof. I need to try to run as many times as I can in the next few weeks. A lot of stuff is happening starting EXACTLY three weeks from today and I do not want to look or feel like this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Luckily (or not…) Thanksgiving won’t be too difficult for me to handle, overeating-wise, because I have work the next three days after, which means I won’t be able to eat anything that contains milk, cheese, soy, broccoli, cauliflower, beans, etc etc etc. (And I don’t eat meat.) So I probably won’t be eating much of anything really. Maybe bread. Bread is safe.
I’m just talking for no reason now. I need to go to sleep.
I could enjoy the holidays like a normal person without my eating disorder and food allergies consuming my every thought.
I’m so sad and frustrated today.